The dilemma of the unplanned pregnancy and university.

Oh shit indeed! Image from here.

This pregnancy was unplanned. The plan was to have more sprog after I finished uni but I guess the universe (and my uterus) had other plans. So as soon as that second blue line appeared on that stick I had just pee'd on, I immediately thought "What about uni?"

At that time, we were about three quarters through the semester and I had more pressing things to worry about - You know, like how the fuck am I going to pass this hell boring subject when I've been sitting up the back of the class tweeting? Then the morning sickness set in and I was more concerned about how I was drag my sorry ass off the lounge and into class, so it was filed in the "Worry yourself into a state over this later" tray for future reference.

In the end, I passed both my subjects and uni finished up for 2011 but I just told myself to worry about 2012's study plans later and kept that shit in it's tray. Out of sight, out of mind!

Alas Semester 1 for 2012 is looming on the horizon and I can't put off the decision making any further so I sat down this morning gave the situation some thoughts.

I have a few options;

- Defer all of 2012 and look into going back in 2013. Learn how to sew, finish my ABA training and generally soak up life being barefoot and pregnant.

- Return to class for the 1st semester of 2012, be awesome, rock that shit and then defer the second semester.

- Continue studying during 2012 as planned, losing my sanity in the process whilst attending 80 hour clinicals in a local hospital with a 2-4 month old babe at home.

- Put it all in the too-fucking-hard pile and go eat a hunk of White Choc Raspberry cake!

These are my concerns;

- This is most likely my last pregnancy, should I stay home with my feet up and enjoy?

- Will poor Kim Kardashian ever find true love?

- If I defer this year, will I go back at all?

- If I don't go back and finish, how the fuck will we ever afford to live in something abit bigger than our shoebox?

- The 2 units that I will be studying are more in-depth than the ones I studied last year as they begin to address how the body works, etc. Can I handle it?

- Do I really want/need more grey hairs?

I keep reminding myself that;

- While I often struggled keeping my shit together last year, I enjoyed being at uni.

- It feels damn good to know I'm working toward my goal of being a Midwife.

- I am only 25 this year and my kids will only be little once.

- I need to get off my ass and organise dinner before my energy runs out. Blergh.

For now I have re-enrolled, knowing that the option of deferment is there if I need it. The problem is, how the fuck am I going to know if I will need it or not?

What would you do?